" Rock Bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life."
- J.K. Rowling
Life can get bad... like really bad. It can hurt and it's scary because you're out of control and everything's gone wrong and your heart feels like it's dropped down into your stomach, it's painful how heavy it feels and nothing could get worse.
So tell me about tomorrow. I imagine it's better. In fact I know it;s better. Take some time, be sad. Cry, swear, shout, feel rubbish for a few days and accept that's how you're feeling and just take it in all its intensity.
Now get up.
Tomorrow's going to be better because you're going to make it that way honey. Have a shower, paint your nails, make an action plan and tell me what you're going to do about it. You don't deserve to feel this way. If you need help then get help ( I promise it's out there... seriously, google it. ), If you need to drop the subject that you've tried and tried but are leaving every lesson crying then drop it. If you need a fresh start then have one. If you need to be with the person you love then be with them. What have you got to lose ?
Rebuild your life and let yourself have what you need, find what makes you happy and know that you are loved. I love you. You can do this . If for no other reason ... J.K.Rowling is a pretty damn impressive woman so she's probably right about this as well as most other things !
You're doing good and I'm proud of you. I once got asked how my week was and I said " Up and down.". I was expecting the reply " Why, what's wrong? " but no. He said " That's normal, life is full of ups and downs, it's about handling them in a healthy way ". So be sad, pick yourself up, make an action plan and rebuild your life.
Life can get good... like really good. You can make a change and it can be hard and you might go through hell to get there but I'm telling you it's pretty good when you do. Feeling happy, in control and like it couldn't get any better. If you need a reminder of that then this is for you.
Stay Strong <3 Stay Smiley :)
Lots of love, Marianne xxx