"Let me tell you about scared. Your heart is beating so hard I can feel it through your hands. There’s so much blood and oxygen pumping through your brain it’s like rocket fuel. Right now you could run faster and you can fight harder. You can jump higher than ever in your life and you are so alert it’s like you can slow down time.
What’s wrong with scared? Scared is a superpower! Your superpower! There is danger in this room. And guess what? It’s you. Do you feel it? Do you think he feels it? Do you think he’s scared? Nah. Loser!"
- The Twelth Doctor , Doctor Who, Season 8 Episode 4
As I've mentioned a few times, me and my boyfriend are working our way through the many Doctor Who episodes since the 9th doctor and we are almost there ! Last night we were watching an episode called "Listen" ( It's both terrifying and hilarious and you should probably go and watch it ) and the doctor talked a lot about fear. Recently I've been wanting to write a post about how to be nervous but I just never quote got around to it. But after re-watching this episode of Doctor Who and seeing how perfectly The Doctor and Clara ( his companion ) described fear, I was desperate to right this post as soon as possible !
A lot of new things have been happening recently like starting college and it made me very nervous , like I'm sure it made pretty much everyone else. But I tried very hard to focus on something I've learnt over the last few years . When you're nervous, ask yourself why. In my experience the answer tends to be " Because it means a lot to me ". That is why you have to do it, however nervous you are. Make a list of why you want to do it and use that fear and the adrenaline it gives you to power you forward to achieve whatever it is that means so much to you that it makes you nervous. The majority of the time, because whatever is making you nervous means so much to you it can make you feel scared that you're going to mess it up . But What would be the point of doing something if it didn't mean enough that the idea of it going wrong doesn't bother you ?
So in reality, being nervous is a good thing and you can use it to work harder and kinder and achieve everything you ever wanted . But don't let the fear scare you so much that you don't let yourself but happy and enjoy what you're doing. Accept, understand and work with the fear and know that it is just your excitement and enthusiasm to get whatever it is you're doing right , and guess what ? YOU WILL ! I believe in you :)
This is just a dream, but very clever people can hear dreams. So please, just listen. I know you’re afraid, but being afraid is alright. Because didn’t anybody ever tell you? Fear is a superpower. Fear can make you faster and cleverer and stronger. And one day you’re gonna come back to this barn and on that day you’re going to be very afraid indeed. But that’s okay, because if you’re very wise and very strong fear doesn’t have to make you cruel or cowardly. Fear can make you kind. It doesn’t matter if there’s nothing under the bed or in the dark so long as you know it’s okay to be afraid of it. So listen. If you listen to anything else, listen to this. You’re always gonna be afraid even if you learn to hide it. Fear is like a companion, a constant companion, always there. But that’s okay because fear can bring us together. Fear can bring you home. I’m gonna leave you something just so you’ll always remember. Fear makes companions of us all.
- Clara , Doctor Who, Series 8 Episode 4
Stay Strong <3 Stay Smiley :)
Lots of love, Marianne xxx