If you're a regular reader and have been for a while now, it probably didn't escape your notice that I around Christmas I disappeared off the blogging scene and re-appeared a month later. Having broken up with my boyfriend and happily dating my girlfriend.
I was always very open with you guys about my girlfriend. That's probably because me and my girlfriend had a long chat soon after we started dating officially about how best to avoid problems when coming out. So, in the end we decided not to, we'd pretend nothing had ever been different, people would assume we'd already taken the crap for it and leave us be. It was a long shot, but in most parts of our lives, for some reason it worked ! I detoxed my life of anyone and anything that didn't make me happy, went into college and held her hand.
Obviously it wasn't quite that simple. With my family, complications with my ex boyfriend ( some of my older readers may remember that I used to talk of him fondly on my blog and say how happy I was with him, I also spoke like this in really life in a desperate attempt to convince myself because if I'm honest I was scared, but that caused a lot of confusion in the aftermath of the break up ) and the odd 12 year old shouting abuse at me and my girlfriend down the street. But we made it and it was worth it and I couldn't be happier with my girl.
It was really hard at first, I'd cry most nights and the question " Should I let go of your hand ? " when walking past somebody we knew in the street, was a regular one, Until one day I realised nothing felt like holding her hand. I almost lost her once just before we got together and I remember waking up that morning and knowing that I'd hurt her and it felt like my heart had shattered and the broken pieces were ripping my stomach to shreds. I remember feeling so sick at the bus stop that I just had to call her and she shouldn't of answered ... but she did and then I knew she always would. The next day she would tell me about the life we were going to have and the fluffy towels that would always be in our bathroom... but more on that another time. For now, all you guys or anybody else need to know , is that I love her.
So here's the coming out post. You get it now, six months late but here you go. I'm gay, I'm cool with that and I hope you are too. If any of you want to see more posts on or around this subject area or would like to hear more information on specific parts of this subject then let me know in the comments. Or If any of you would like to talk in private then don't hesitate to email me !
My Email : MyHappyBubbleXx@outlook.com
As always, I love you guys loads and all I want to say is , love who you love. It won't always be easy but it never is in any relationship but if it's the right one, it will also be good and worth it I promise so hang in there <3
Stay Strong <3 Stay Smiley :)
Lots of love, Marianne xxx
I loved this post so much, and I'm definitely going to email you soon, so look out for that!
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I'm glad , of course darling I'll reply as soon as I get it <3
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
This was such a wonderful post to read and I really admire your story. I actually like the fact that when you started dating your girlfriend you kinda pretended that nothing was ever different, it just shows people that it's completely normal and natural for you and really shouldn't be questioned. I really like how you both stick together and don't listen to what anyone might say, congratulations :)
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Thank you so so much, we planned it and decided it was the best approach to take especially with college ( kids can be cruel ) and it actually worked so I'm happy with that :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
"we'd pretend nothing had ever been different, people would assume we'd already taken the crap for it and leave us be." that actually makes so much sense. I was so worried because I was dating somebody from work, we being such a small team, but if you're cool with it, everybody will be! they smell FEAR, haha. you two are a gorgeous couple and I hope you have a lovely day.
ReplyDeleteit was a long shot but it worked and to be honest if you show people you're confident in what you're doing then they'll be confident in it too ! Thank you honey !
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
You guys are sooo beautiful together!! Amazing for you for getting over your fear! It's something you just had to learn :) Always follow your heart, do what makes you happy and the cliche saying really is true: "Love is love." Keep smiling and bless you guys :)
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Thank you honey :) One thing I've learnt since dating her is you have to do what makes you happy, anything else isn't worth while :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
This is such a cute post, I completely believe you did the right thing and I couldn't be any happy for both of you xx
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Thank you darling ! Have a lovely day :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
You both look gorgeous! And I'm super happy for you, Marriane! I bet it feels amazing to finally come out and be free. You are one strong girl and I salute you for making this big step and finally doing the right thing for yourself :) x
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Thank you ! She's the best thing that ever happened to me :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
you're so brave! It's never good to hide behind a secret. Now you can be free and spread your wings! xX
ReplyDeleteI'm not brave i'm just happy ... and i'd like to share that with people :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
This post is so lovely and I'm very happy for you xx
ReplyDeleteThank you honey ! Have a lovely week :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
:') So So Proud of you and happy for you and excited for you :D <3 This is amazing! I love that you two decided to go on about things as normal because that's the way it should be. Nothing that you guys did was out of the normal. You loved each other and that's about as "normal" as that gets. It's sad that it won't always work out the way you hoped or that everyone will accept you but truth is that you can't ever make everyone happy. So just focus on being happy and if Georgie is what makes you happy, then cherish it <3 Keep doing more of what makes you happy Marianne :) <3 xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you crystal , I couldn't of done it without all your support at the time :) I think we made a good choice, we didn't want to pretend anymore we wern't hurting anyone and if I'm honest the happiest moment of my life are when her family sees us together and tells me it's the happiest they've ever seen her <3
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
I'd definitely love some more posts on coming out and the adjustment period you had. I'm really interested and proud of people like you who are able to live out their true selves as it were, you are clearly so happy with your girlfriend, it's just a shame other people have a problem with it or are scared to come out themselves!
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Thank you honey, I'd be happy to make some more :) My girlfriend is the the pride of my life , she's the person I always talk about because nothing else seems interesting without her :)
Deletelots of love, Marianne xxx
Thank you sweetie :) I love her to bits and want to show her off :) Crystal has been a great help through all of this ! YOu're the best honey and your confidence and self love that you rpromote through your blog has actually been a great help to both me and georgie with handling people with confidence :)
ReplyDeletelots of love, Marianne xxx